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1. When it reminded you that you’re worth an infinity of stars.
Sam: Why do I and everyone I love pick people who treat us like we’re nothing?
Charlie: We accept the love we think we deserve.
2. When it was time you realised the you of now can be different from the you of yesterday.
My doctor said we can’t choose where we come from but we can choose where we go from there. I know it’s not all the answers but it was enough to start putting these pieces together.
3. When you needed one more proof that actions speak louder than words.
You can’t just sit there and put everybody’s lives ahead of yours and think that counts as love. You just can’t. You have to do things.
4. When it told you to never give up on that one person.
Charlie: Mr. Anderson? Can I ask you something?
Charlie: Why do nice people choose the wrong people to date?
Bill: Are we talking about anyone specific?
Bill: Well, we accept the love we think we deserve.
Charlie: Can we make them know that they deserve more?
Bill: We can try.
5. When, as an introvert, you always found it hard to speak the most precious yet hidden words of your heart.
I know who you are, Sam. I know I’m quiet… and, and I know I should speak more. But if you knew the things that were in my head most of the time, you’d know what it really meant. How, how much we’re alike, and how we’ve been through the same things… and you’re not small. You’re beautiful.
6. When it reminded you everyone was special.
I was very grateful to have heard it again. Because I guess we all forget sometimes. And I think everyone is special in their own way. I really do.
7. When it taught you the most important and basic thing about life.
Things change, friends leave. And life doesn’t stop for anybody.
8. When you had to realise ‘being there’ was all that was ever needed.
It’s just hard to see a friend hurt this much. Especially when you can’t do anything except ‘be there’. I just want to make him stop hurting, but I can’t. So I just follow him around whenever he wants to show me his world.
9. When you thought memories could only hurt you, it showed you they could also become an inner strength.
Maybe it’s sad that these are now memories. And maybe it’s not sad.
10. When you wanted to tell them how special and beautiful they were, but couldn’t find the right way to do so.
I just want you to know that you’re very special… and the only reason I’m telling you is that I don’t know if anyone else has.
11. When it made it feel okay to be a wallflower.
I walk around the school hallways and look at the people. I look at the teachers and wonder why they’re here. If they like their jobs. Or us. And I wonder how smart they were when they were fifteen. Not in a mean way. In a curious way. It’s like looking at all the students and wondering who’s had their heart broken that day, and how they are able to cope with having three quizzes and a book report due on top of that. Or wondering who did the heart breaking. And wondering why.
He’s a wallflower. You see things. You keep quiet about them. And you understand.
12. When it showed you that the here and now was all that ever truly mattered.
We didn’t talk about anything heavy or light. We were just there together. And that was enough.
13. When you thought things were hopeless, but then remembered music was here to make it all better.
And I thought about how many of these people have loved these songs. And how many people got through a lot of bad times because of those songs. And how many people enjoyed good times with those songs. And how much those songs really mean. I think it would be great to have written one of those songs. I bet if I wrote one of them, I would be very proud. I hope the people who write those songs are happy. I hope they feel it’s enough. I really do because they’ve made me happy. And I’m only one person.
14. When you needed to put words on what your depression and/or anxiety felt like.
I don’t know if you’ve ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That’s why I’m trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning.
So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I’m still trying to figure out how that could be .
15. When it reminded you that there was no small suffering.
I think that if I ever have kids, and they are upset, I won’t tell them that people are starving in China or anything like that because it wouldn’t change the fact that they were upset. And even if somebody else has it much worse, that doesn’t really change the fact that you have what you have.
16. When it drew your attention on the fact that you are still alive, and should make the most of it while you still can.
I don’t know if I will have the time to write any more letters because I might be too busy trying to participate. So if this does end up being the last letter, I just want you to know that I was in a bad place before I started high school, and you helped me. Even if you didn’t know what I was talking about or know someone who’s gone through it, you made me not feel alone. Because I know there are people who say all these things don’t happen. And there are people who forget what it’s like to be 16 when they turn 17. I know these will all be stories someday. And our pictures will become old photographs. We’ll all become somebody’s mom or dad. But right now these moments are not stories. This is happening. I am here and I am looking at her. And she is so beautiful. I can see it. This one moment when you know you’re not a sad story. You are alive, and you stand up and see the lights on the buildings and everything that makes you wonder. And you’re listening to that song and that drive with the people you love most in this world. And in this moment I swear, we are infinite.
© Quotes from ‘The Perks of Being a Wallflower’ by Stephen Chbosky