“Learned to use my voice and sing up loud enough”
Writing. For some reason I don’t really understand, some people don’t even consider it as being part of what one commonly calls ‘ART’, but it is! It is even one of the biggest fields of ART! And I am proud to say that I’m a writer… Some will say I’m not! But who are they to tell me who I am?! Because, you see, I think we’re all artists somehow, whether we are a photographer, a painter, a singer, a songwriter, a dancer, a writer, or even an extremely talented doctor! We all have something special, something we want to stand up for, something that makes us who we are, and this something might not be related in any way to what we’re studying or to the field we’re currently working in, and as far as I’m concerned, this something is nothing but my writing. I love writing and that is why I consider myself as a writer. Because I love doing it, I’m truly enjoying every step of the ‘writing process’. When I don’t write, I feel like something is missing, like I’ve forgotten to do something. It’s the same feeling as when you’re supposed to do something you can’t remember at all! And this pretty painful hole in my stomach won’t get away before I write. So… I just write, write, write and write again as if the words I’m writing were the last I will ever write. And those words really do me good: they are able to turn the ‘mess’ I can be into the most ok person on earth!
If someday, someone asks me what I’d like to do for a living, well I will certainly answer that I would like to live my passion. I would say that I would like to be an artist, that I would like to be a writer. I’ve always kept in mind that we must not forget to follow our hearts, or limit ourselves in anyway shape or form. I personally believe I can live the creative life I’ve always dreamed of. I am an hopeless believer!
But what does it mean to be an artist? I think I quite agree with my newly made friend, Charlotte Eriksson, who wrote “And this is what being an artist means, being a poet? To sacrifice yourself for your art, sacrifice your heart for your art, because it’s only through something broken that something beautiful can grow.” It is true for all kind of artists, which means it is also true for writers. And I agree, because if you have a beautiful, easy & perfect simple life, where nothing happens whatsoever, where you don’t make anything happen at all, where you’re lost in your daily routine that nearly transforms you into a robot, you’ll have absolutely nothing to write about! It might seem like it is a pretty sad and depressing point, with this idea of sacrifice… but it’s true though! You can’t possibly write something that will touch people, something that is pure if it’s empty of wounds, and if you are not even hurt or broken when you write it!
Plus, the main point in writing is to express ourselves, but also free ourselves from our heaviest emotions and feelings that are buried in the deepest part of our hearts. Vicktor Alexander once wrote: “Inside of all of us there is the need and the desire to be heard, to have our innermost thoughts, feelings and desires expressed for others to hear, to see and to understand. We all want to matter to someone, to leave a mark. Writers just take those thoughts, feelings and desires and express them in such a way that the reader not only reads them but feels them as well.” So not only is it important to express all of our thoughts, feelings and emotions but it is also fundamental to share those thoughts, feelings and emotions. Because we are not machines after all, we are humans and we need to communicate one way or another. And ART is such a good way to do it (if not the best and one & only!). For my part, I’m totally on Alexander’s side when he says that writers do not only express their feelings and ideas, but they write “in such a way that the reader not only reads them but feels them as well”, because that’s precisely what I’m trying to do every time I write and I really, really hope it’s bearing its fruits!
Now so as to conclude on the kind of artists/writers I’m defining myself as, I’m simply going to quote Charlotte Eriksson once again, as we’re barely and literally soul sisters, in the strict meaning of the words! I would name myself what she calls a “real artist”. I think I am “the artist who is not defined an artist. [I’m like] the one that writes music by himself, for no one to hear. (…) the singer that shuts the door and opens her heart. (…) the musician that never ’made it. [I’m part of] the real ones. (…) [I’m like] the girl on the floor in her bedroom, writing down the lines she will never speak. The poet in a village somewhere far away, who never had the money to send his art to LA. The band that is still in the garage, playing until their fingers bleed, who never cared for brands and image. [I’m like this] writer, [this] poet, [this] dancer, [this] songwriter, who never lost their passion. Who never cleaned up the chaos. Who kept the true purpose of art. “ And just like Charlotte, I think a writer (but every artist as well) should, above all, “live their art, breathe it and be it. “
“My writing, it’s my way of making sense of everything. My way to feel whole. May I never be complete and may I never feel content – please, let me always have the need, always have the urge to write.”
“Writing. Because it makes you complicated and interesting and nuanced.” – Chelsea_Fagan
That’s one of the other reasons why I write